Breaking the Silence...

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Did I feel like I had nothing relevant to say? 

Did I fear that everyone had stopped reading? 

What made me stop sharing and blogging over a decade ago? 

Insecurity is a fickle little character that weaves his way into my storyline as often as he can. 

I try to push him out, but he somehow gets a foothold on the welcome mat and pushes his way back in the front door and makes himself comfortable on my couch for days and months at a time. 

So what makes me want to crawl back out of this hole after such a long silence??? 
I wish I had a strong answer for you other than, "I felt like it was time." 

Perhaps I felt like I finally had something worth sharing. Or maybe it's not really all that relevant to anyone, but I just need to get the words out of my head. 

Have you ever typed out a whole post and deleted it because you thought it just wasn't "Good enough"? 

I almost did that with this post. 

I don't know all the things I want to share here, but I want to keep the connection open to this world. I don't want to shut myself off like a hermit. I want to invite people in to share their own insecurities and deepest feelings. So if you just need a place to share your thoughts. Let this be your landing space. I'm here. WELCOME. Let's start a conversation. 


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